Meet Jess Shipman
Jess starts us off with a story about what led her to wanting to take her own life.
“I used to think that I needed to be perfect, and being perfect meant that I wasn’t allowed to struggle or feel pain. I knew that I couldn’t ever measure up to the standards I set for myself or the ones society set for me, so I hid what I was feeling from everyone, even my family and closest friends. I hid my struggles with depression, anxiety, self-injury and suicidal thoughts for years, and I pretended to be happy, so no one would suspect a thing.”
In Fairy tales and Monsters. (Part 1- Aspergers), Jess explains to us what it’s like to have Aspergers Syndrome and ways you can help others with Aspergers Syndrome feel more understood.
In, I Didn’t “Ask For It” , she writes to a man who sexually assaulted her and was talked out of pressing charges because she was told that she was “Asking For It.”
“Shame and I are on a first name basis. This one doesn’t seem to positive, does it? However, we can’t talk about rape without talking about shame. There are so many people that shame victims of sexual assault. The greatest shame, for me, came from within myself. I am still, 2 years later, dealing with the shame. From the dozens of showers that I compulsively took in the first days after the rape to the spiral of thoughts I feel when someone new learns that I am a rape survivor—shame has permeated my journey. In fact, it has taken me years of thinking of writing this letter to actually do so because shame has always talked me out of it. It is exhausting. I am bringing my shame, the shame that I have no reason as a victim to feel, into the light.”
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